Tuesday, April 26, 2005
sabi nila, lahat ng kwento may happy ending... pero salahat ng happy ending, akin ang pinakamasaklap. hindi tapos... walang continuation... walang part two... wala na. pero ano nga ba ang happy ending? di ba napakaun-orthodox naman nyan? ano nga ba ang "happy" o "happiness"? sino ba talaga ang may alam kung ano sila? kung ano ang tama at ano ang mali? kung sino ang dapat at di dapat tularan? ano ba ang trust? mahalaga ba talaga ang softdrinks? tama ba na sabihin na mapait ang lasa ng ampalaya pero mapakla ang lasa ng atay? ano ba talaga ang halimaw? sino ba talaga si mahal? kelan ba talaga magugunaw ang mundo? bakit ba tayo tinawag na tao? sino ba talaga ang nagpauso ng otso-otso? 7 ba o 2? bakit 1+1=2? naisip mo na ba kung bakit lima ang daliri mo? ano ba talaga ang partner ng butter? bread o milk? kelan ba talaga nagsimula ang katarantaduhan sa mundo? bukas ba o ngayon? bakit nila sinasabi na lumingon sa pinanggalngan kung nasa gilid mo ang pinanggalingan mo? ano ang silbi ng tissue holder sa banyo kung wala namang tissue? saan ba talaga nagumpisa ang lahat? sa itlog o sa manok? mahal na ba ang bigas ngayon? pinalalaki ba nag napocor ang nakukunsumo nating kuryente? bakit ba nagkaroon ng world war two eh may vietnaman war naman? nagkaroon ka na ba ng aso? sinampal ka na ba ng kaaway mo? nakipaglips-to-lips ka na ba sa pusa niyo? saan ba nanggaling ang mga pesteng langgam? bakit ko ba naisip ang mga katarantaduhang ito???
wala akong magawa eh... pero sabi nga nila lahat ng kwento, may happy ending... oo HAPPY ending... sa sobra ngang kasiyahan namamatay yung bida sa huli o kaya naman sunog yung kalahati ng mukha bago ikasal pero magpapaplastic surgery muna sabay tadyak sa kontrabida... ako yan. yung kontrabida... namalayan ko na lang gusto ko lahat ng tao miserable... BWAHAHAHAHAHA! hindi, joke lang... ewan ko ba... mas masarap kaya maging kontrabida... kasi di ba lagi kang mayaman, maganda [charot!!!] at may gwapong lalakeng aali-aligid sayo! yikie! asteeg maging kontrabida... makikita mong pinahihirapan ang bida na bubuhusan mo ng asido sa mukha para mas maganda ka na sa kanya!!! nyahaha... [kahit alam mo na sa huli na yayaman siya, magpapaplastic-surgery at babalikan ka... kukunin pa jowa mo!] di ba? haha... ganayan sa telenovela, soap opera, pelikula... basta kahit anong istoryang PROUDLY PINOY!!! pero sa amerika palang ako nakakita ng movie na kontrabida ang humahalakhak sa huli... nakuha niya yung yaman, asawa, at posisyon sa lipunan nung bida!!!! namatay pa yung bida sa harap niya...! kaso nung ikakasal na siya, naglalakad siya papuntang altar eh bigla siyang bumagsak... may leukemia pala siya at dead on the spot siya... haha...
siguro masasabi natin na "cheaters never win" o kaya naman "good triumphs over evil" pero isipin din natin ang mga proverbs na "it's better to cheat than to repeat" at "nice guys finish last"... tama sila... nice guys finish last... haha... kasama ako sa mg anice guys dati... pero i finished last... napagiwanan ako!!! kaya ngayon, kontabida na ako forever!!! hahaha! itaguyod ang bandera ng mga taruray!!! nyehehehe... joke lang.... matagal ko nang alam na isa ko sa mga tao na wala nang ginawa kundi mambwisit at manggulo ng iba... pademure effect pa!!!!
yukichiyu screamed her lungs out at 9:52 AM!
Friday, April 22, 2005
yellow_angel_vherlitz17 (4/20/2005 2:19:01 AM): gs2 ko lang sna mgpaalam sau n li2gawan ko s randel...
yukichiyu screamed her lungs out at 9:48 AM!
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
"all your lies they feed me....
i'm stonger now, i'm stronger than i was before
there's no way you can hurt me....
move me.... stop me...."
theme song ko ngayon... sa impyernong dinaraanan ng buhay ko ngayon, haha! alam ko namang over-acting ko naman na ganito ako magreact.... sa bagay, ano nga ba ang silbi ko di ba? ni wala nga akong position sa buhay nila.... ewan ko ba.... ang tanga ko... nasasaktan ako ng walang kwentang dahilan... hello!? ano niya ba ako? affected ako? shet ha.... pag ganyang bahay talaga... napakatanga ko... lagi akong talo... laging niloloko.... laging inaagawan o naaagawan... hirap ako makalimot.... hirap makahilom ng sugat... kasi pag kala ko magaling na ang sugat, dahan-dahan na palang natuttuklap ang sakit na yon at lalong lumalala...
haha... napaka-OA ko talaga...sobrang sakit kasi... di pa pumili ng matino... hmmmm... masakit man, kailangang tanggapin... kahit mahirap, masaklap.... hmmmmm.... naghahanap ng pangtakip.... prangkahan na, pinangtakip ko siya... pero di ko inakala na ganito na ako sa kanya... iniwan niya ko, namatay ako.... lalo akong nawalan ng kwenta... ako. iniwan. inulila. sinaktan.
sa lahat talaga, tanga na ko, gago pa... nagpapakatanga nga, nagagago pa... hinahayaan ko kasing tapak-tapakan ako.... ewan ko ba... ganyan ako eh.... masarap kasi matapakan, para kang dahan-dahang tinatraydor...
traydor. yan ako. prangka ko, nangengelam ka!? traydor ako... wala akong kwentang tao... bakit ako traydor? dahil hinahayaan ko na masaktan ako habang hinahayaan ko ring sumaya sila... na bawat kwento niya sakin tungkol sa kanya eh unti-unti ko na lang nilulunok at pinipigilan ang mga luha... mga luha na mabilis dumadaloy sa aking mga pisngi sa bawat beses na kinukwenta niya siya.... traydor ako dahil habang masaya siya, tahimik akong umiiyak at nagpapanggap na masaya ako para sa kanya.... traydor ako dahil ako pa ang nagtulak sa kanya na pumayag sa kanya...
nasasaktan ako... ngunit hinahayaan ko lang... parang tinatanggalan ako ng kalamnan sa bawat beses na maisip ko sila... silang dalawa.... magkasama.... sa isang senaryong dapat ako ang bida... ako ang masaya... at habang sila ay nagkukulitan at naghaharutan, dahan-dahan akong lumuluha at naiisip: "basta't masaya sila."
"while you were with her, i was alone;
while you were happy with her, i was sad;
while you two were laughing, i was crying;
but the worst of all....
while were with the one you love,
i was here....
happy for you yet killing myself"
masakit magparaya.... masakit masaktan... masakit... masakit... masakit.... wala nang hihigit pa sa sakit na ito.... sa bawat pagkakataon.... niloko nila ako... ginawang tanga.... ginawang laruan.... ginawan gago.... ginago.... pinag-mukhang tanga.... pinaglaruan.... sinaktan.... sinaktan.... iniwan.... tinraydor... pinatay.
pero sa lahat ng ginawa nila....
hinayaan ko lang sila, habang nakikita ang buong pagkatao kong hinahangin.... dinadala ng hangin sa mga lugar na di ko mapupuntahan... itinatago upang di na makita... di maibalik sa akin... upang iwan rin ako....
masakit talaga.... di ko maamin sa kanya... sa bawat kumpas ng dila niyang nagtatanong kung ayos lang ba ako, pilit ngingiti at sasabihing "ako pa!" habang unti-unting nadudurog ang puso ko.... di na mabubuo... di maaayos.... tanungin man niya ko ng ilang libong beses, masakit... ngunit di ko aaminin... matatag ako "sa kanila" ngunit malambot sa sarili ko....
"Pag sila'y nagiinumang masaya
Bakit sa lupa magulo
Pag silay nagtatawanang malakas
Tinatawanan lang tayo
Di kaya isang tropa lang sila?
Ang demonyo, san pedro at ang diyos?
Tinatawanan lang ni hudas
Tinatawanan lang ni hudas
Ako't ikaw, tayong lahat
Balita ko'y may nagaway sa inyo
Dahil ba sa penoy at balot?
Nagdebate, nagtalo Kung sinong tama't totoo
Pinagawayan si jawo
Kung sana ay mamulat ang matang dilat
Nagiisa lang naman ang diyos
Tinatawanan lang ni hudas
Tinatawanan lang ni hudas
Ako't ikaw, tayong lahat
Tinatawanan lang ni hudas
Tinatawanan lang ni hudas
Tinatagayan lang ni hudas
Si satanas
Na dating diyos na "
hudas... ako ba yan o siya? sino ang totoong hudas? ang nagparaya't nasasaktan o ang tumanggap at nagbubulag-bulagan? hudas ako... tangna ko.... wala akong kwentang tao.... tado ako eh... tangna ko... murahin na niya ako sa lahat ng alam niyang mura... hanggang magsawa siya... oo nga naman, di ko siya hinaharap... bakit, ako ba hinarap na nila? tangna... kung di ko pa nasambit na nasaktan ako, di niya sakin aamin ito... tangna ko.... manhid ko.... shet ako.... pucha ko.... shet ako!!!! tangna ko!!!! ako ang tanga.... ako ang poonyeta!!!!
magising na sana ako sa walang kwentang buhay na ito... na malaman ko na panaginip ko lang ang buhay na ito...
tangna ko.
yukichiyu screamed her lungs out at 7:06 PM!
ganito ba talaga? ewan ko lang ha... pero sa LOVE-thang eh sobrang malas ko... kulang nalang eh mamatay na ko sa kabwisitan at ka-high-blood-an na dinudulot sakin ng mga *ehem* "LINTIK" na lalakeng yan!!!
haaay... minsan naiisip ko i can do without men... pero pag dating ng gabi at wala na naman akong makausap o makalambingan... haay... balik ako ever sa pagkatanga sa kanila...!
di mo naman ako masisi... apat na lalake na ang dumaan sa buhay ko noh... tatlong boyfriend at isan almost... at sa bawat isa na pagkakataon na yun... asus... aruy ang nadama ko!!!
KAYA WALANG MATINONG LALAKI SA MUNDO!!! NAPAKAWALANG0KWENTA NIYO!!!
naisip ko lang kanina, sa mga lalakeng natitipuhan ko, 98% eh mga good-boy image... ahahaha...! mga pag tiningnan mo eh ang gwapo at maamo ang mukha... walang bisyo.... pero lam niyo ba, sa mga tarantadong matitino ako nagagago!!!!
may isa akong kilala, naninigarilyo, tagay-boy at kung anu-ano pa... pero say mo, tindi magmahal...
good guys don't really exist noh?
wala na akong nakitang matinong lalake... at kung meron man, di ko napansin...
nasan ka ba!?
yukichiyu screamed her lungs out at 7:05 PM!
at exactly 12:03am EST the world changed...
i was quite engaged in watching a show when suddenly it was interrupted by a flash report... "HABEMUS PAPAM" it read.... WE HAVE A POPE!
as my cat snoozed and cuddled my pillow, i slowly drank in the realization of the event...
i was very surprised for it was only a day ago since the conclave began... not that it's a bad sign... i even dreamt about the conclave last night.... during the one hour of sleep i got, i dreamt that i was in front of the boob tube watching the white smoke come out of the sistine chapel's chimney... i was applauding as they announced the name of the pope...
well, now it's reality... as i was clapping my hands and thanking god of the blessing he gave the Church i heard it...
"Cardinal Yusesmus Josephum Ratzinger und Papam Benedictine xVI"
pope benedict XVI was born.... thousands applauded in quadro de san pietro.... hundreds cried... and millions stuck their eyes to the boob tube... unable to make it to quadro de san pietro...
noone knows what will happen next... but as i heard the pope's own words...
"Grazie."
i also thank god silently as the struggle for the Church's rise start all over again.
yukichiyu screamed her lungs out at 7:04 PM!
Saturday, April 16, 2005
I pick all my skirts to be a little too sexy
Just like all of my thoughts they always get a bit naughty
When I'm out with my girls I always play a bit bitchy
Can't change the way I am
sexy naughty bitchy me
I'm the kind of girl that girls don't like
I'm the kind that boys fantasize
I'm the kind that your mommaand your daddy were afraid you'd turn out to be like
I may seem unapproachable
but that's only to the boys who don't have the
Right approach or ride that makes a girl like me
wanna hop in and roll
People think it's intimidating
when a girl is cool with her sexuality
I'm a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home
and being innocent
My mouth never takes a holiday
I always shock with the things I say
I was always the kid in school
who turned up to each class bout an hour late and
When it comes to the guys I'd lay,
I'd always pick the ones who won't figure out that
I was clearly rebel to the idea of monogamy
People think it's intimidating
when a girl is cool with her sexuality
I'm 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home
and being innocent
yukichiyu screamed her lungs out at 10:18 AM!
Friday, April 15, 2005
Here's the answer to the question on what to prefer: the one who loves you or the one you love... this is also for those who are waiting for the person they love to love them back openly, to those who are looking for love and those who know that their love is not meant to be...
Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the person of deeds and not for the one of words, for you will find rewarding happiness not with the one you love but the one whom loves you more.
The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within your being. To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart.
Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it.
You may find peace in just loving someone from distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.
There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions.
Others are lucky to have an actual fairy tale unfold in their lives, when they find that this is the significant other they've long been waiting for... However, for some, the sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship... but don't be so bitter about it! For it is a kind of FRIENDSHIP that will last for a LIFETIME!!! We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.
You don't have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible, and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.
Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow: If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry, if you have to, but make sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you.
Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you.
And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime. (awwwww.) "When I lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more. For someday I can love someone the way that I loved you but you will never be loved again the way that I did."
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON. . . It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a Godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered.
And now it is time to move on.
Then people come into your life for a SEASON. Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons: things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant...
yukichiyu screamed her lungs out at 10:50 AM!
Thursday, April 14, 2005
asteeg.... lam niyo ba na sobra na akong walang kwenta!? hindi ko na nga laam kung bakit pa ko nandito noh....
nakakawalang gana magblog...
nagpamedical na nga pala ako sa UP last week.... at pede na ko magenroll... hahaha! kumpleto na ko sa requirements! wehehehe...
maya na nga lang...
yukichiyu screamed her lungs out at 11:41 PM!
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
ano ba naman yan! lam niyo ba, ako pa pumili ng subjects and schedule ko for college!? well, preenlisment yun..... pero grabe! ang hirap pala!!!!!!!!!
if you want to see my sched, click here
o kung di mo maclick and lintik na link type http://i2.photobucket.com/albums/y44/yukichiyu/sched.jpg on your browser.... yan ang sched ko!!!!!!
grabe ah...... sana nga matanggap yang sched ko na yan..... yoko na magpalit noh!!!!! hmmmmmph!
yukichiyu screamed her lungs out at 11:09 PM!
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
here it is.... my self.... wahahaha! actually, eto talaga yan....
yukichiyu screamed her lungs out at 5:11 AM!
