Friday, December 24, 2004
new year. i always have mixed feelings about the merry happy new year. one side of me feels relieved that we still have a new year to go around and live life, go on a road trip or have a movie marathon. but there's also the other part of me- the part that feels a little bit sad beacuse stepping into may also means slowly saying slowly goodbye to my favorite season of the year.
i've always had difficulty saying goodbye. wheter its as babaw as bidding farewell to a fave pair of low-riders i've outgrown (the holidays can be so cruel!), or as painful as walking away from a relationship i once treasured. i always feel a little tug in my heart ever time i let go. but i know i shouldn't feel so awful. but there is a thing i always remember.... there's the GOOD in every goodbye...
like the time i sobbed my eyes out after my baby (and pet pooch) keroberos died. while wiping away my tears, i said to myself that even if they took away my baby, they could never take away the happy memories we treasured together. or the time i made the painful decision of letting go a special person in my life (we have grown apart). i thought that there was no reason for me to feel sorry about it because the experience definitely enriched me and made me a better person.
but one of the best things that i learned is that for every goodbye, there's always a hello. hello to a new pet. hello to a new wardrobe. hello to a new love. and hello to building new memories.
so saying goodbye to the last year need not be as torturous or as painful for all of us. and as long as we make most out of whatever time was given to us, then there should be no hesitation to start it all over again.
yukichiyu screamed her lungs out at 1:33 AM!
